Ornate yet vacant,
that’s how it always seems to be.
Seems to me we could to better,
would do better,
not to dress it up to mask it’s lack of meaning.
If hollow were so prized,
we’d realize that form needs no function
but we berate the barren
and substance reigns supreme.
So why the pretty package
that holds an empty promise
when we endeavor for wisdom unadorned?
My Circle
Generosity generates prosperity
Prosperity perpetuates generosity
This is the circle I would like to center my life inside and follow it as it wings around me with centripetal force. Tethered to a truth so simple, so powerful, how can we go wrong?
I believe in beauty, I believe in possibility, I believe in serendipity.
I know who I am because that is who I have always wanted to be and I count myself lucky in this. I found a home inside myself long ago and never looked back.
I realize there are many out there searching for something, someone, a life plan to follow, a monumental truth to live by. I wish I could spread my arms wide and welcome everyone into my peace, share the magnificence I feel but all I can do is live. Live fully, brightly and without reservation.
Sometimes I am amazed at how smoothly and naturally everything can fall into place for us, if we let it.
Most people around me think I go through life wearing rose colored glasses, and they are correct. I do. I wake up, put them on, and move about my day. I have been given nicknames like Susie Sunshine and am not offended. I am better for it. It reminds me of the immeasurable joy all around us.
May we all swim in that joy and may you all find a home inside your own heart.
Star
A cresting tide
in an embryonic sea
awaits the christening
blue marine beginning
as a star slowly rises
through the radiant depths
an orb unfolding
in the dance of a nebula
Oceanic
I dream underwater dreams
of pale seahorses
and silver bubbles rising.
Green sea grasses stretch
to touch the glass ceiling
where sunlight sparkles like jewels.
The luminous jellies
make slow motion circles
and I float suspended
in the cool liquid blue.
Genetic Treasure
Just some words of last year’s NaNoWriMo attempt. I always post poetry so I thought I’d throw in a little prose and I suppose it’s satire more than anything.
It was one of the warmest, most beautiful afternoons Grayson had seen so far this summer. July had been decent but August was heating up nicely and even though May knew that California held some gorgeous warmth for most of the year, she still couldn’t pass up a day like today. Besides, the Grayson population tended toward the pale so she was hoping to get a good blush of color before landing among the locals, who she still imagined to be bronzed and shining, even though they had the same sun screen warnings as everyone else. She would be acquainted soon enough with the modern miracle called the spray tan.
As she lay stretched out and relaxed it was only natural that she should fall asleep. The dreaming began quickly and she felt herself lifted up in the air, feeling a lovely floating sensation that she sometimes felt in her dreams and often wished she could feel in real life. Usually she just floated up and around the neighborhood, peeking into peoples second story windows and trying to see what books were on the shelves or if they had any pets. Now however, she floated up and up until the earth fell away beneath her and daylight dimmed into darkness. She thought she should feel cold, you know, the coldness of space and all, but she felt perfectly comfortable. Perhaps it was her body letting her know it was still warm in the backyard waiting for her return.
So here she was, drifting in infinite space with nothing to look at and no one to talk to. She marveled at the enormity of it, the much referred to vastness and just when she had begun to enjoy the solitude of the moment, she heard low tones that became the sound of a female voice. Words were indistinguishable and as she was mentally trying to piece together something she could understand, a nebulous figure took shape before her. Kind of looked like Joan Rivers and she repressed a giggle, although she wasn’t sure if she giggled up here it would make a sound. She was too embarrassed to try now that someone or something was here. May was an introvert of extraordinary proportions.
The two of them floated across from one another, in amiable semi-silence, until finally the voice that had been mumbling something at her for the past few minutes finally took on language and May was able to pick out actual words.
“Balance” was the first thing that came through to her. She took it literally and looked around her floating self to see if she was tilted or falling but all looked adjusted. Still afraid to speak, May waited for the translucent Joan Rivers to say something snide about how her flip flops so did not go with the bikini she had on and how that particular shade of yellow washed her out entirely. Yes, she was floating in the ether of space clad in a bright yellow bikini, rhinestone studded flip flops and her chic, trendy sunglasses. She knew Joan could have nothing to say about the sunglasses. They were extremely expensive.
“You must..” and the words faded out and then back in again. “your destiny…”
May’s curiosity got the better of her and she had to ask.
“Do you think I look good in yellow? I was going to buy the red one but yellow seemed so sunny.”
The figure looked surprised for a moment then formed more words.
“You have been chosen.” Opaque hands reached out to her.
Wow, a full sentence but it certainly did not answer her question. It was also ironic, that here is the girl least able to make a choice and she finds that she herself has been chosen. May wonders if that has anything to do with her condition.
“There are duties you must perform to protect the planet. It is out of balance and you must set things right. It is your destiny.”
Never having thought of her life in terms of destiny before, May is thrown by this comment but suddenly remembers that she is dreaming and feels better about it instantly.
“Okay, so what do I have to do?” she says, playing along.
“Further instructions will be given at the turning.” Joan began to fade and May was experiencing a definite falling sensation.
“Damn” She muttered as the wind rushed past her in her rapid deceleration toward what she feared would be a dreadfully sunburned body.
Dare to Choose
A step on the path, moving forward no matter the conditions. We cannot begin again and once we speak things we cannot take them back, so I try to be conscious of the effect of my choices without being so caught up in the choosing that I lose the moment. Dithering, dithering and yet not deciding is a shameful waste of our time. Choose, then move, then choose again. Just follow where the decisions lead you and that should be enough to keep you going in the right direction.
And because I’m feeling frivolous, here’s a senseless little ditty for grins.
Fluffy white whispers,
kittens have whiskers
and leaves grow on the trees.
The red curtained window,
lets the wind blow
while the beekeeper chases his bees.
Automatic Writing?
A strange thing happened to me the other day. I started writing and this is what landed on the page.
Eretria con mortix ex deus
supulae altus megeara
tuus filamon terra suus patria ex
tirae fulcrum nomina pelum mortis ex viteae
I have no idea where that came from but I do know some of it is actually Latin. I tried to translate and got this far:
con mortis ex deus – against death from god
altus – high or deep
tuus – yours
terra suus patria ex – from his fatherland
nomina – name
mortis ex vitae – death from life
Yes, it kind of freaked me out but at the same time fascinated me. There are so many mysteries of the mind and of the universe. I try to remain open minded, especially when I can’t reason my way around it. Maybe it means nothing at all and its just some regurgitated words but maybe it’s a secret code that unlocks amazing possibilities.
I like to live life on the amazement side.
The Great Run On
A bit of a free write-brainstorming kind of thing. Just a moment from inside my mind.
The ink in the well, wellspring of my muse, the source begetting the void, bringer of all, birthing the beginning, setting eternal clocks ticking and I spin on the center of the wheel, trying to feel my way back through time, separating space, moving together, pushing or pulling, the maker, the made, the earth in the shade and the sea is a shadow of mist, distilling the bliss and listening to wind in the trees, a sky split asunder, the grass that grows under, a sun melting into the sea.
The Test
eleven minutes left
the countdown weighing heavily
preying on my mind
and dashing my concentration
against the rocks of limitation
the clock keeps clicking onward
ticking out a tempo
that numbs all of my skills
but the ability to tell time
Resurrection
Cleansed of her sorrow and no longer blind,
Ophelia rises and opens her eyes.
Her watery locks hang limp at her sides,
her dress clinging heavy to pale, slender thighs.
She moves with slow grace, her arms open wide,
regaining her strength, her hope and her pride.
Her breathing is soft like whispering sighs
and her once weary heart no longer cries.
She walks with wisdom, her head held up high
While the winds calls her name and her spirit flies.